Each day I go to Facebook and I scroll down. There are so many "self help" posts that I share. Constant reminders to not let other people get you down, to love yourself, etc. etc. Some sarcastic and funny. Some deep. Some that are naughty. I read them and try to internalize them. It seems I am trying to undo some of the baggage which I have carried around with me for so long.
Something hit me today. Are we all searching for that perfect place of bliss? Do we wish we could always be in a good mood? Do we wish we had that perfect marriage? Do we wish we were doing better in our career or that we even had a career? Do we wish we were in better health? I know all these things are true.
It seems it's hard to live for today. We look back and regret. We look forward and hope. But today gets by us. I have this and this and this to do. I'm too busy. I didn't sign up for this. This is not the way it was supposed to be. My plan backfired on me and it's not working out.
I remember once I had everything figured out. My plan was implemented. Unfortunately that plan involved another person and they did not perform in the way I had anticipated and the plan blew up in my face. I was mortified. The person turned out to be nothing like I thought they were and because of that I had to revert back to a place I was trying to get away from. I was very resentful to that person. Because of them my plan didn't work.
Have you ever had everything figured out and then it didn't work the way you had anticipated? Does that make you mad?
Don't you just want to be happy??? Does it exist? As long as you are trying to find happiness in another person, you will never be happy. You have to find happiness in yourself.
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