This blog could get pretty boring. Today I juiced. Done. But that's the whole gist behind this blog. It is to chronicle my journey to getting healthy. It's to hold me accountable.
No one might read it except for me. I should imagine that thousands of people are reading it and that I am making a BIG difference in others. Truth be told. The only difference I am probably making is a way for me to unload what is on my mind and put "pen to paper." I use others' blogs as a template for my own. My friend told me that by reading her own blog and reflecting back, some things hit her in the face. We've all heard, "hind sight is 20/20." I suppose as I read and reread my blogs there should be some things that pop out to me.
One thing I was thinking about was Yoga. Doing it because I want to? No. Because it seems like the next step in "healthy Kelly." Then I almost laughed out loud. The last time I did Yoga was with Chelsea. She's lean and strong. As she is going through the poses (as are all the other buff participants) I've got my bum in the air and look ridiculous!! Literally. I am so far from being in shape, it is comical! I remember being very young and a cheerleader. We didn't sit on the sidelines during basketball games. We were right in front of the crowd, right behind the team. We were constantly jumping and doing pom pon routines. Have you seen the pom pons from the 70s? These suckers were 3 times the size of a basketball. No wonder we all had guns in the day. For me to declare to get fit by going to the Y each day is a lie!! I would never do it. The only thing I can TRY to do is move. That's my first step. Walk. Dance. I love picking up the house with my iPhone cranked. I've got some very upbeat music. I embarrass myself with my loud, off key singing and dancing. Not when I'm alone but when my children are around. Chloe hates it when I sing. It reminds me of working at Wellspring and people would come in and listen to accompaniment tracks. They'd have their head phones on and be singing loud - and off key. We got a lot of laughs during the day (poor people if they ONLY knew!)
First word of advice on juicing. KEEP YOUR JUICER OUT!! Today I cut out the apple. I juiced carrots, tomatoes, celery, parsley, cilantro, cuke, broccoli. I'd like to tell you it tastes like V8. It doesn't. It isn't as thick. I like it. I know it is better for me than V8. It gives me more nutrients than I'll ever get from a pasteurized, preservative ridden health drink!!
Now a more ominous topic!! The dreaded CT scan!! Get used to the word Scanxiety!! This is a term we LMS patients use about how anxious we get right before our scan. With LMS you could go in and everything could be stable. OR you could go in and the LMS is on the move. Either spreading or growing. I've already come to terms with being a Stage IV Cancer Patient. This diagnosis has me on the disabled list according to Social Security - meaning, your life sucks!!! You can't work. You've got a terminal disease! I try not to dwell on the whole Stage IV thing. Even saying it out loud makes me cringe. I'll always be a Stage IV cancer patient even if I go in and they declare me in remission (or in today's term - NO EVIDENCE OF DISEASE. NED FOR SHORT. My friend, Debbie Williams calls me Ned a lot. She's the most positive upbeat person in my life!! I love her!!)
So tomorrow I get the quarterly scan. Of course, tomorrow you will hear all about it. You might hear good news or bad or nothing news. Say a prayer as I go get scanned tomorrow!
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