Contentment

Today I feel content.

I don't know.  I went to visit my friends in Virginia.  I went to my class reunion.  I went to Mayo and had some pretty good news.

My daughter, Chloe slept with me last night.  I think she missed me.

The reason I must live a long life is for her.  I am her rock.  Without me she is lost.  The Lord will allow me to stay alive for her.

I have grandchildren.  The Lord will allow me to stay alive for them.

I have family.  The Lord will allow me to stay alive for them.

I have friends.  The Lord will allow me to stay alive for them.

I have no hate.  There have been quite a few times in my life that I have been very angry.  Someone refuses to step up to the plate and my frustration levels go through the roof!  I have released everyone.

People's choices if they do not affect me, are of no consequence.  Who cares?  Everyone has to live their own lives.  Make their own mistakes.  There is nothing I can do about it.

All I want is love.  If you do not love me, I cannot force you to do so.  Maybe I do not love you either.  But for those who I love, I love.  If I want love from someone and they do not have it in them to give me the love I need, then I feel sorry for them.  I must learn to live without their love.  It is a hard pill to swallow but it has to be done.  You cannot force people to do something they either can't or won't do.

So happy to realize these things.